Anticipation

Do you remember as a little kid, the days/hours leading up to a big event like Christmas, Vacation, or family visiting?

I remember counting down days on the calendar as a kid.  I was always so excited for Christmas, Vacations,  visiting family, Camp and just about anything else.

Usually I would have my bags packed weeks, if not a month, in advance so I wouldn't forget anything.  Then, the night before, I would not sleep hardly at all.  My excitement would keep me up.

Well.... Nothing has changed.  Especially when it comes to visiting my husband.

I the last 5 months we have spent a total of 7 days together (not even all in a row).  I know being in the military means we won't get to see each other near as much, but that doesn't change how excited I am when I do get even just a couple of days to spend with him.

I would start thinking about what I'm taking weeks in advance, and sometimes even start packing that early.  I have the days numbered on my calendar so that I know exactly how many days I have left until I leave.

A couple days before, I start counting down hours as soon as I realize I am down to 48 or less. Then, I can't stop talking about how I can't wait to see him in X number of hours.

Then, the night before, yeah.... might as well not even go to bed because I KNOW I'm not going to be able to sleep.

On the drive down, I might as well be pumped full of caffeine the whole way because even if I'm driving I'm practically bouncing in my seat with excitement (without any caffeine).

Once I get close to where he's at.... I pace until I can see him because I'm that excited.

Once it's time to meet him, I anxiously scan the faces of every man in uniform that walks by..... hoping the next Airman to walk past me is my husband.

Then it happens.... I see him walking towards me and my heart stops!  The time is finally here!!  At that point It doesn't matter if it's been five minutes, five months or five years since I've seen him.  All I want is to be in his arms again.

The time always goes by too fast but the memories that we make (whether it is going to the zoo, a movie or just walking around somewhere) is what keeps me going until the next time I start counting down days.